I feel like this little guy, because like a good student I have squandered away my free time lately by just doing nothing and now I am way beyond overwhelmed. I have about a billion things to do-- and they all nicely came up around the same time and are all due in the next few days.
I'm still a bit sick and all I want to do is sleep and rest and try to get feeling back to normal, but there is no time. This semester is very hard... I don't remember having this much homework in my previous semesters, unless I just forgot and tried to block it out? I do a lot of my homework when I'm at work, but there's still always more to get done when I get home.
This year has a very different feel in general... so much about my life has changed a lot in the last few years. I still feel like I'm in a weird transition in regards to friends, church, etc. I just feel like I'm a constant state of flux trying to get back to normalcy... which brings me to another Art History image: Oh, Mondrian. I really like you. I'm sorry you're so misunderstood. 
Anyhow, some really cool new things this year that are exciting: I've been wanting just more FELLOWSHIP lately, so I joined a couple Bible studies-- one for older girls in Challenge. It's more like a sisterhood and I've really learned a lot from these ladies so far-- they are awesome and so welcoming. I've also been wanting to meet more people at FBC since I really do want to make it my church more, and I'm starting a small group next week with a few other girls who attend Washburn.
I think your 20's are so unsettling. People constantly come in and out of your life, friendships change, people move away, friends get married, etc. I don't know how to explain how I feel about all of this other than feeling unsettled. Honestly, I feel like right now there are very few people in my life I can still relate to, being a single woman with pretty much no responsibilities and having no desire for a relationship. I think it can be both the easiest and hardest thing to be single. People forget what it's like. But I think the most valuable thing to a single person is genuine and sincere friendships. I'm so blessed by having a few strong friendships with women I know I can laugh with, cry with and share the most vulnerable places in my sentimental heart. And there's my Jesus whom I know I can ALWAYS rely on. He is always there to hold my hand in these lonely times when I'm so tired of facing the world alone.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
On the mind...
Posted by lanes at 3:53 AM
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The early twenties seem to be such a pivotal time in our lives. It's a time when we're done changing developmentally, or because we as humans have no choice in the matter, but we are being transformed year by year, month by month into a real person, with opinions and strengths and character. A lot of the time this transformation can only be brought about by hardships, such as heavy course-loads, questioning of everything you once believed in, loneliness, and prolonged singleness... God is using fire to refine you. And I guess it's something to be thankful for (James 1:2) but it sure is hard to thank him in the midst of it all. I'm praying for you, pal, and can totally relate to everything you said!
Thank you, my dear. I love you so much and I treasure your words! This IS a hard time right now, but I know that God has a purpose behind everything and soon we will see the silver lining... Thank you so much for your friendship-- you are a gem. :)
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