The Ready Vessel

"Life requires countless 'little' deaths-- occasions where we are given the chance to say no to self and yes to God."
-Elisabeth Elliot

I was feeling a little discouraged at Bible study the other night, not because of where I am with the Lord right now, but it just seemed to unfair that things had to end like this. No lesson learned is wasted time, but sometimes it does feel like that when so many regrets and disappointments took place. Can't lessons ever be a little less messy? Teri slid this verse over to me, as a 'private text,' and it really helped a lot:

"I will repay you for the years the locust has eaten-- the great locust and the young locust, the great army that I sent among you."
-Joel 2:25

The Lord restores! He is faithful, and can turn the broken into the redeemed. I do believe that He loves me passionately. He is jealous for me! I am so undeserving of His great love and mercy, and all I want to do is stand in awe, bow in front of Him and beg just to kiss His feet. He is beautiful.

I sit with Him, and just cry tears of shame and ask how He can possibly love a sinner like me, yet He has already demonstrated that love before I even existed. But He knew. He died for me. Why should I not die for Him?